Sunday

Dang was last nigh fun :] haha my legs are sore today. Well in the afternoon samantha and i went and got our nails done during the day, we saw so many people at the nail place, and then got ready back at her house. Then ana came over and we all went to penera. After we ate and stuff we got bored so we walked around the little plaza place to kill some time and went into beals :] haha we tryed on clothes and sunglasses and stuff and took lots and lots of pictures. Samantha and i put on these like neon colored robes (green and pink) and ana had on this like oldlady dress and hat and god we're such dorks. Everyone in the store just shook there head as they walked by us. Then we went to the kingcenter. I floated around and went and said hi to everyone, but then mostly just stayed with ana and jenna and then samantha, other people were always around and stuff too but thats who i like acutually like dance danced with. We danced like idiots and freakin broke it down haha it was sooo much fun, im kinda sore though today. i danced with "black" a few times, it was nice, it felt good you know? like it was awkward or anything, well not for me. But he spend most of the night all over his "date" and everytime i saw them i just wanted to walk away so i didnt have to see it, and they would always seem to be like right next to us. Ohwell i still had a great time, guys just add to much drama, samantha and i decided we dont need them :] "green" ended up not coming last night cuz he never got a ticket, but he just called me and was like meet me at the park, and i was like im so tired (didnt even get home till 1 last night and didnt got to sleep till who knows when) and hes like i dont care i want to hang out with you, and i told him that i was sleeping, and hes like okay fine call me when you wake up then because i want to see you :] but i have to go out to dinner with my family so i cant go anywhere. Tomorrows going to be interesting though...

Ill write agian tonight if anything else interesting happens,
<3kayla

Friday

ThankGodItsFriday:] today was a very long day. Well nothing really has happened..yet. Tonights the homecoming football game. Well okay i havent written about this yet but its been bugging me. So "black" is always telling me hes changed and that things are different with him well a few days ago he grabed a couple girls asses which is just obnoxious. That plus making out with some chick hes says he doesnt like? yeah so thats whats been bugging me this week. And he says hes done trying...so maybe im done too? W.e i guess ill see what happens tonight :] and tomorrows homecoming so anything possible these days :] live life and regreat nothing.

Will write when i get back from the game,

<3kayla

Later:
Ohman...tonight was uhmm interesting. At first i hung out with samantha then nikki and then i just bounced from one group to the next. Well "black" everytime i saw him he was all over some new girl. He came and sat with me in the beginning untill him and nikki started fighting haha and i was just kinda sitting in the middle of it. She was mad about the same things ^ that i wrote about early. But yeah w.e idk it was weird. He then left to go to mcdonalds with some girls, idk who. Well since he had left...i started hanging out with "green" i saw him a few times during the night and talked to him a few times but he was with his friends and i was with mine so we always went separate ways. towards the end he came and found me and like took me back to where he was sitting. Well then after the game was over, we were like walking together over to 5th quarter to find alec and he grabed my hand and held it as we were walking around and stuff. People were like looking at us and stuff and someone was like is this ours? you going out? and he was no not yet. And so idk...haha :] i find myself likeing him but i dont want to, im trying to fight it haha i really am. i was like happy and stuff while we were together and stuff but i kept thinking about "black" and how he was with some girls who knows where, and it might of been like jelousy that i was feeling? idk if hes going to homecoming? but i do know that "green" is going. So who knows i guess im just going to go with the flow, what ever happens happens. Well i dont think anything else is going to happen between know and when i go to be, but if it does ill write again and if not then i will write on sunday when i get back from samanthas and tell all about homecoming :] i seriously cant wait.

<3kayla

Thusday

Haha man i thought it was friday all day. Well today was an okay day i guess, nothing exciting, same old same old. I woke up, rushed to get ready, went to school, sat half dead in all my classes, went to the "skin" doctor, came home, hung out with alec, did my homework, ate dinner, fixed my homecoming dress (sewed on straps) phone for like 10 minutes, and now im sitting here typing this. Guys confuse me, i swear things will be getting good then bam! something messes it all up and then its my fault? w.e haha i should just completley swear off guys..Anyways tomorrow nights the homecoming game :] and then saterdays homecoming! i still dont know what im doing with my hair? i really really hate this haircut but ohwell im stuck with it till it grows out. Well i just read a whole book via sparknotes and im and about to fall asleep so ill write tomorrow after the game probably.

<3kayla

Tuesday

Im so freakin bussy. I have like no time to do anything ahhhh its crazy. Sorry i didnt write last night, im slacking here huh. Well nothing really exciting happened yesterday. I forget what happened at school? haha but after school we went to bayside for our volleyball game. We creamed them...it was sad...for them. We won in two games and i got to play in the second game. The ride over was the highlight of my day :] Haha well today same nothing to exciting happened. We played viera and beat them and i had some playing time. Michael came and watched it was really nice to see him, i didnt really get to talk to him or w.e but still just seeing him was nice. haha and we totally creamed them too, we won in two games again :] uhmm well "black" and "white" were both there but "white" actually tryed to get me to talk to him and stuff and actually worked for atention haha but "black" on the other hand...he was gone most of the night with some viera girls. I tryed to talk to him and stuff but it just seemed like he blew me off? but then appariently he thought i was blowing him off? w.e idc he said he was done "bothering" me (which he never has) and hes not going to like try and stuff anymore...so yeah idk anymore. Oh then last night "green" called me and was like ahh i havent talked to you in forever haha :] and he was suppose to come to our game tonight but couldnt. And i jus got off the with him just now and stuff we talked more tonight than anyother time we've talked on the phone. Haha we didnt talk about anything like important but still. And then i was trying to put my bird back in its cage and i was like dude my bird doesnt like me...and hes like i know someone who likes you :] and i was like and who would that be? and hes like uhmlasdjfjdf and got quiet haha and then total changed the subject. I was like okay? but idk i find all those old feelings or w.e coming back when i talk to him or im around him...and i dont want them to cuz i mean its him...haha im kinda all over the place these days. Well im exhausted and iv got another long day tomorrow.

goodnight,

<3kayla :]

Monday

Eww i hate mondays. Today wasnt all that bad. This morning i heard rumors about "white" and that he was saying all this shit. But he denies it and idk who to believe so i was just like w.e forget it. I was just in one of those moods today, i played like crap at practice. But ohwell tomorrows a new day. Tonight was the powderpuff game. It was really fun, hung out with different people. Im looking forward to the homecoming game, and homecoming :] Also people have been bugging me to make up my mind about a guy, that i have to pick one? I dont want a bf now it just complicates things, friends is just so much easier. So im just going with the flow here...and maybe people will stop calling me a tease....

Anyways im going to bed

Goodnight

<3kayla

Saterday

Wow i had fun today :] i slept in to about 11ish then called Brandi and we went the beach to surf. There wasnt much waves but it was perfect for brandi to learn on. We surfed with katie in the morning and then later me people came. People meaning dylan, nick, alex, quinn, and seth and then brandi. I had fun :] i lost my top and bottoms a few to many times on this like tube thing they had and man you just had to be there. Im a little sunburned but it was so worth it. Now im just "babysitting" alec. And tomorrow Samanthas coming over at 12 and we are hanging out all day. We are going jewlery shopping haha :] Well im watching grind now and will write ether later or tomorrow

<3 always kayla

Friday(forgot yesterday)

Opps my bad, didnt write yesterday. Well yesterday was an amazing day. At the volleyball game i got to play alot in the second and third game. I scored 3 points with just my serves, it was very exciting. Well at school "white" walked me to almost all my classes, it was nice. And he officially like asked me out and i said no. Its way to soon you know? I dont want to rush things, and i technically just broke up with michael and i mean im not going to be over him for a while. And then theres another kid...im going to call him "black" because that was the color shirt he was wearing today. I really really liked him over the summer and we were going to go out and stuff but things got all messed up and idk. But i still kinda like him? im not completly over him and stuff and he told me that hes done bothering me and is just going to give up. I didnt know what to say cuz apart of me wont let me like him cuz dont want to get hurt but then another part of me wants him to prove that i can trust him and by giving up it...idk. I guess i just going to have to forget about any feelings i still have for him...So yeah idk. Today nothing really exciting happened, i got my haircut and i think it looks okay i can never do anything with my hair. And my dad brought home some of the reef girl bathingsuit samples. I can were the tops :] but not these bottoms cuz there brazillion cut and its like a freakin thong. But im going to order like normal bottoms, im excited. Tomorrow theres supose to maybe be waves, so im going surfing and if i dont then im probably going to have people (dont know who yet) come over here and hang out. So im just going to go with the flow tomorrow. I was supose to hang out with jenna tonight and maybe tomorrow but that got canceled..again. So yeahh idk wats going on anymore. But i might get to hang out with brandi tomorrow :] well if anything else exciting happens tonight then ill write again later.

-Kayla <3

Later:
So "white" called me and we talked on the phone for like 2 hours. Yeah i like him like a just a little bit, but i still like dont know him all that well and stuff. So yeah im just going to not do anything right now. And im talking to "black" right now...and i was starting to actually believe him and stuff and would of tryed to let him in and stuff. Well turns out tonight he went to the movies and madeout with this chick. Now you can see why i wouldnt let myself fall for him...he hasnt shown i can trust him? But w.e its his life he can do what he wants. He says he just wants me..but then goes and does this...so who knows w.e haha i just want to go live on an island in the middle of no where so no one can find me, i need a break, an escape. People dont see...i just put on a happy face..but iv been dealing with alot of my own shit lately. Yeah wonderfull huh? And its raining and idk why but its making me want to cry? wow okay im going to go watch tv or something take my mind off of everything...my heads about to explode

<3kayla

Wednesday

Today was a good day :] i was in a very good mood all day. I didnt get much sleep last night because i was up so late on the phone, which im just fine with :] so i was pretty tired at school and stuff. Well when i got to school "white" found me and he walked with me to my locker and to first period and stuff, and i got a hug. First period was kindof a weird class? Idk mrs.miles is a little different... but anyways i had a lot of homework (almost every class) and i just finished. Oh yeah and seems that im like known as the "reef girl" around school haha. Volleyball was good after school i was in a very good mood so i played pretty good :] i got all my serves over today it was exciting and we have a game tomorrow so i really hope i get to play? "white" also came and found me after school and walked me to volleyball. Oh oh i got my handstand almost down now, im getting better haha iv been practicing in the gym. Well after Volleyball i went surfing with my brother and dad. The waves were surprising really really fun. It was kinda offshoreish? and mushy but still breaking nice. I actually had a few little barrels :] my brother was very impressed, he didnt expect me to be that good i guess? but i had fun, going out there really refreashes me. I totally forget about everything, nothing else matters and it gives me a chance to clear my head. Well i actually just got off the phone with "white" we talked for almost 2 hours :] but cuz i got like no sleep last night im going to go lay down or something.

goodnight <3

Tuesday

Today was a good day :] well for the most part. I found "white" this morning and he walked with me to the portables for first period, but i didnt get to see him again the rest of the day. He just called but my phone didnt ring and he has to do his homework but hopefull he will call me back. Uhmm nothing really exciting happened today? Same old same old. I was going to go with alec to the delaura basketball game but he went to soccer. Going back to colors I talked to uhmm idk what color? im going to go with "green" haha :] well i talk to him shortly today. idk whats going on there? but yeah w.e. And my mom is really really mad at me? and i dont really know why. She wont talk to me or even look at me. I appariently hurt her feelings and now shes just cutting me out. w.e Im going to go watch beauty and the geek for a little bit so ill write later.


Later:
Awhmannn. Well "white" was supose to come with me and samantha to homecoming. Samantha was my technically my date date but i was going with him really. Now hes not even going to be home that day hes going out of town. Im sad now :/ like i said i was cool with it but idk i was looking forward to it im kinda sad now. Well he said he has something "planned" for this weekend. So i think that means hes deffiently not going...:/ oh well everything happens for a reason right? I will dedicate the night to my friends, samantha and i will be the hottest couple there haha :P

LaterLater:
Wow its like 1 in the morning and im on the phone with "him" :] wev been talking since like 10ish. Man i think i like this kid more and more everytime i talk to him. I know its late..but tonight was a good night.

love,
Kayla :] <3

Septemer 17th

Well todays the first day of my blog. Iv decided to move my "journal" onto here :] Today i had a very good day. I went with samantha to the florida mall to go dress shopping. I must of tryed on a gazillion dresses untill i found this really pretty black and white strapless. I never wear dresses ever so its amazing i was able to find one. Samantha found a really adorible one too, its a strapless yellow dress. After the mall we went to beals and found shoes. I got black heels :] i feel very pretty when i wear them haha. Also samantha and i totally decided what we're going to do for halloween, its exciting. Well when i got home i talked to Michael, and we both decided to be just friends which i think is for the best i love that kid to death and dont want to loose him as a friend. I have also decided im going to use code names for people i want to remain nameless for the time being :] im going to use colors like me jenna and samantha did in 7th grade. Well "white" called me tonight and we talked for a good hour. Last night we talked on the computer for like 5 hours and had a very deep conversation. It was nice :] i find myself maybe falling for this kid? Well anyways now im just watching OneTreeHill and i see lightning outside and can hear thunder...well im going to see if i can figure out how to post this...will write tomorrow.

love,
kayla :] <3