Friday

these past few days have been interesting...very intersting...well iv decided this new kid will be uhmmm "blue"? and im going to write about everything else in my handwritten journal :] sorry

<33kayla

P.S. tomorrows the boat parade :] party at my house

Wednesday

i cant seem to remember to write, jeez. haha well this past weekend was cherishs party. i went with jenna which was nice cuz i never get to hang out with her :] it was fun we all just kinda hung out...her trampoline is completly broken now. uhmm on sunday i got to hang out with brandi :] we went to the merrit island mall and saw a movie. haha i love that girl, shes the only one who will crawl under my bathroom stall just so she can use my sink. anyways this week..well mondayy this kid who i dont really know but is really really cute and gives me highfives everyday, he passed me a note that had his number and "wing night?" written on it. i couldnt go so after school i texted him and he was like well we'll figure something out this weekend. haha :] and then tonight i was texting him for like an hour, he wanted me to go to the soccer game with him but im to tired to go anywhere. also today someone told me they thought "grey" might like me cuz hes always talking about me. im getting over that whole thing tho. uhm nothing else really happened, i got to work in the lab today i got alot done. haha i felt like such a nerd in my lab coat goggles and gloves haha :]

well im going to go watch tv

<3kayla

Friday

well im exhausted. haha for it being friday all i want to do is sit on the couch and sleep. i was going to find plans something to do. but my head hurts and im ready to go to sleep. nothing really happened this week. i uhm find my self starting to like this kid who i really really really dont want to like, but i find myself starting to crush a little? uhh ill call him "grey" idk why i like him hes and idiot and the type of guy i shouldnt like but always do... haha anyways this weekend my cousin was supose to come down this weekend but something happened and now hes not...again...im not to happy about that but w.e. uhmm tomorrow nights cherishs party but besides that i dont really have anything else to do. i was going to hangout with brandi tomorrow and maybe after cherishs party but she got in trouble with her mother..uhohh. so now she might not be able to hang out :/. well my head hurts, need advil, then food.

<3333kayla

Saterday

i remembered to write two days in a row :] thats a new record. today was pretty much a quiet day. this morning i woke up at 830 which is crazyness, 830 on a saterday? what? well ana, nikki, and jill came over and we worked on our project for history. haha we put on halloween costumes and what not, im a news cast person. don van heinrick is my name :] haha it was funny. i have to go to nikkis tomorrow to do a powerpoint and practice our interview newscast. after they left i didnt really do much. i painted a little, watched tv, read my new book, and rode that fighters bike my dad got, yeah i was just a tad bit bored. then tonight i babysat for paul, that boys a handful. im exhausted now and can barly keep my eyes open so im going to sleep. lets see if i remember to write again tomorrow :]

<3kayal

Friday

dang...iv been out of it for awhile. i know so many people actually read this and care that i havent written in like a month (sarcasim) sorry :] i plan to start writting everyday again. well sad thing is i cant really remember much thats happened between now and when i last wrote? iv had a lot of family drama, i broke my fingers (dont ask) oh and "green" or tyler and i are no more as of like a couple hours ago? yeah idk ether...anyways this weekend i dont have to much planned. tomorrow i have to work on some stupid project for mrs.miles with ana nikki and jill, it should be interesting. then sunday night i have my cape coast volleyball thing to go to and michael wanted me to help him with something for cherish sometime this weekend i think? besides that im going to be sleeping :] and maybe go surf on sunday i heard there may be waves. today i stayed after school and worked on research. i preped my plates and talked with mr.scott about my research plan. i know i sound like a total nerd here, but im excited :] 69 days left. well yeah thats about it. i promise, pinkie promise i will keep writing :]

<3kayla

Monday

haha ohman its been awhile. Im just forgetfull and keep forgeting to write. Todays monday, the worst day of the week. Today went by really really slow and i was like half asleep all day. Well lets see whats happened? Last week was that field trip to the orlando science center thingy. We saw that body exhibit. It was extremly boring but i had fun. I hung out with samantha, brandi, and "green" :] most of the time. I slept most of the time. I slept through both imax movies and on the bus ride there and back. haha :] but it was fun. Wednesday was halloween. Now that was a fun night. A lot of people came over after school and we all go ready at my house. It was funny we had like 12 people cramed in my small room. We went to the clubhouse untill it got dark and then just wandered around ti and saw everyone. Then i met up with "green" and him and other people came over and hung at my house untill like 9:30ish. I had fun, everyone looked like sluts but thats the fun of it :] haha i was a sailor, and me being smart and all didnt wear anything shorts under it and it was just a little windy. Uhmm then saterday i went to alecs soccer game and they one, alec scored :] it was an exciting game. It was sooooo pretty out. Then yesterday i went to brandis and we hung out at the beach and played guitar hero and rode bikes to the plaza. Then last night i went to bizzaros with alec and his team...i swear theyr like five. They were throwing things at eachother, spitting spit balls, and just being boys. I did learn the right way to shot a spitball haha. Well i think me and "green" are doing pretty good. I dont see him all that much and we dont really get to hang out but thats okay i see him enough. Itll be 2 weeks on thursday. Well if anything exciting happens between now and when i go to sleep i will write again.

<3kayla

Friday

Ohman i havent written in like 2 weeks, my bad. Well since i last wrote some stuff has happened. Last week the only thing i really remember is the football game that friday. I went with jenna and brandi, it was fun :] Well then after the game when me alec and jenna were walking to the rec center "green" stopped me. He was like hey cutie :] and like hugged me from behind, but i had to catch up with jenna and alec so i hugged him and he kissed me on the cheek. And then that night we talked on the phone for like an hour. So i know i had convinced myself i didnt like him anymore..i lied. Well then this week im sick :/ i stayed home wednesday and slept all day. I honestly didnt wake up till like 4, crazy iknow. And i keep losing my voice. Well so yesterday walking to 5th period i saw "green" and he walked with me out to the portables. It was like the first time wev ever actually talked during school. Well then after school he texted me and was like i have a ? and then he asked me out :] it was actually really surprising? But yeah, i havent reallly told people tho cuz my dad would flip...he doesnt necissarily like him to much? but ohwell, my friends werent to happy about it ether, but i dont care its not there life. Uhmm besides that actually nothing else has happened, or it has and it just wasnt that important cuz i cant remember. Tonights the football game at viera, im going with jenna. And then tomorrow im going shopping in the morning, hopefully surfing in the afternoon, then a party at night, then crashing at samanthas. So if anything worth telling happens tonight then ill write later, if not then hopefully ill remember to write on sunday.

<3Kayla

Saterday

haha last night and today was fun :] i hung out with brandi, i dont think iv ever laughed that hard. it was fun, we "gossiped" on the dock for like 2 hours, ate icecream, talked to bird :p, and laughed till i almost peed myself. then today we went to the clubhouse, skateboarding, swimming, went in the canal, padle boarded, ate more icecream, and watched a movie :] haha. last night at the football game nothing to excitng happened. i had fun but nothing like amazing happened...like the last game. i saw "green" but we didnt really talk. im trying to get over him, i really am i dont want to like him at all. uhmm idk besides that noting else like exciting happened. ill write ether later tonight or tomorrow.

<3kayla

Tuesday

Opps i havent written in a few days. Well this weekend i went to st.augustine to see my family. I hung out with my cousins and surfed in red tide haha. i messed up my hip again tho like i hit it and and have a huge cut around my butt and now my hip really hurts. Well besides that nothing really exciting happened. On sunday "green" called me and we talked for a while, hes kinda suspended at the moment though. Yesterday was a good day i guess. Idk im really mad at my dad for stuff right now. hes really really been getting on my nerves and hes just pissing me off like really bad. he doesnt freakin get it alkejsrlfaksjdf and then he wonders why i give him additude about things? what ever. today was a good day, till i got home and had to deal with my dad again. I talked to that cute thomas kid or w.e he was like i got you something! and handed me this scrap of paper and was like you dont have to thank me or anything. haha i was like okay? but hes cute i think like a junior though. Oh and haha i kinda did something stupid today. I was walking to publix with cherish and people and we started talking about "green" and we were saying all this stuff about him and then we here "hey.." and we turned around and he was like right there. i was like haha wow what are the odds? idk if he heard me or not but we then went into publix and we were tlking to his sister and making faces at his little brother, who by the way is just adorable, and there was just alot of awkward tension. haha ill see him i guess thursday? well tomorrow we have an away volleyball game and get out of school at 2:30 :] i hope i get alot of playing time, and i hope my hips stops hurting i was like limping all day. well now that my dads not hogging the freakin tv anymore im going to go watch something idk what yet....i kinda want some cookies?

well ill try to remember to write tomorrow,
<3kayla

Thursday (thought it was wednesday)

Today was i guess a good day. "green" wasnt at school, so i still havent talked to him... and turns out "black" did ask that chick out... w.e im not going to go after guys anymore and im just going to do what i want. well i got to start today in volleyball..even tho we were just playing bayside i think i did really good. so maybe ill get to play tomorrow. but im soo freakin tired so im going to bed. im leaving for st.augustine tomorrow right after our game for the weekend so idk if ill have my computer.

well goodnight

<3kayla

Wednesday

God guys fucking suck. alksjdflasjkdflaksjdflajsldfjawlsejfaowlesdjfa w.e "green" still wont talk to me "white" is pissed at me, and "black" is going to date some girl...i was like lllllllll close actually admitting i liked him again...and i hate to admit it but im sooo the jelouse type haha sad i know but i cant help it. but w.e guys suck and cause to much drama....im over it. I hate guys who go out with girls just cuz they cant get who they really wont. so they be dating someone but likes someone else more. and acoriding to him he "loves" me lasdkjflawkesjflwesjf my head hurts. haha wow. i dont want to date someone who just had a girlfriend...i refuse to let myself like a guy who just hops from one girl to the next or just messes around with random girls and use the excuse "i was just having fun"

so yeah w.e im over it. im just going to sware off guys man, there was hope for me and "green" but not anymore, "black" likes this girl, and is making me make up my mind now...which i cant do cuz i still like "green" and i wont date anyone if i like someone else cuz i think thats horrible

well we won our games today and are playing bayside again tomorrow...fun fun

i guess ill write tomorrow,
bye
<3kayla

Tuesday

today was...interesting. I gave "black" a hug and appariently "green" saw and and thought i kissed him appariently and now hes all mad at me. This morning before it he said he liked me, but after that hes like i dont like her anymore. Im like ah no! i even called him and hes like thats not what i saw. im like great. but w.e ill try and talk to him tomorrow? nothing else really happened today. I have 3 games this week.

im going to bed.
<3kayla

Sunday

Dang was last nigh fun :] haha my legs are sore today. Well in the afternoon samantha and i went and got our nails done during the day, we saw so many people at the nail place, and then got ready back at her house. Then ana came over and we all went to penera. After we ate and stuff we got bored so we walked around the little plaza place to kill some time and went into beals :] haha we tryed on clothes and sunglasses and stuff and took lots and lots of pictures. Samantha and i put on these like neon colored robes (green and pink) and ana had on this like oldlady dress and hat and god we're such dorks. Everyone in the store just shook there head as they walked by us. Then we went to the kingcenter. I floated around and went and said hi to everyone, but then mostly just stayed with ana and jenna and then samantha, other people were always around and stuff too but thats who i like acutually like dance danced with. We danced like idiots and freakin broke it down haha it was sooo much fun, im kinda sore though today. i danced with "black" a few times, it was nice, it felt good you know? like it was awkward or anything, well not for me. But he spend most of the night all over his "date" and everytime i saw them i just wanted to walk away so i didnt have to see it, and they would always seem to be like right next to us. Ohwell i still had a great time, guys just add to much drama, samantha and i decided we dont need them :] "green" ended up not coming last night cuz he never got a ticket, but he just called me and was like meet me at the park, and i was like im so tired (didnt even get home till 1 last night and didnt got to sleep till who knows when) and hes like i dont care i want to hang out with you, and i told him that i was sleeping, and hes like okay fine call me when you wake up then because i want to see you :] but i have to go out to dinner with my family so i cant go anywhere. Tomorrows going to be interesting though...

Ill write agian tonight if anything else interesting happens,
<3kayla

Friday

ThankGodItsFriday:] today was a very long day. Well nothing really has happened..yet. Tonights the homecoming football game. Well okay i havent written about this yet but its been bugging me. So "black" is always telling me hes changed and that things are different with him well a few days ago he grabed a couple girls asses which is just obnoxious. That plus making out with some chick hes says he doesnt like? yeah so thats whats been bugging me this week. And he says hes done trying...so maybe im done too? W.e i guess ill see what happens tonight :] and tomorrows homecoming so anything possible these days :] live life and regreat nothing.

Will write when i get back from the game,

<3kayla

Later:
Ohman...tonight was uhmm interesting. At first i hung out with samantha then nikki and then i just bounced from one group to the next. Well "black" everytime i saw him he was all over some new girl. He came and sat with me in the beginning untill him and nikki started fighting haha and i was just kinda sitting in the middle of it. She was mad about the same things ^ that i wrote about early. But yeah w.e idk it was weird. He then left to go to mcdonalds with some girls, idk who. Well since he had left...i started hanging out with "green" i saw him a few times during the night and talked to him a few times but he was with his friends and i was with mine so we always went separate ways. towards the end he came and found me and like took me back to where he was sitting. Well then after the game was over, we were like walking together over to 5th quarter to find alec and he grabed my hand and held it as we were walking around and stuff. People were like looking at us and stuff and someone was like is this ours? you going out? and he was no not yet. And so idk...haha :] i find myself likeing him but i dont want to, im trying to fight it haha i really am. i was like happy and stuff while we were together and stuff but i kept thinking about "black" and how he was with some girls who knows where, and it might of been like jelousy that i was feeling? idk if hes going to homecoming? but i do know that "green" is going. So who knows i guess im just going to go with the flow, what ever happens happens. Well i dont think anything else is going to happen between know and when i go to be, but if it does ill write again and if not then i will write on sunday when i get back from samanthas and tell all about homecoming :] i seriously cant wait.

<3kayla

Thusday

Haha man i thought it was friday all day. Well today was an okay day i guess, nothing exciting, same old same old. I woke up, rushed to get ready, went to school, sat half dead in all my classes, went to the "skin" doctor, came home, hung out with alec, did my homework, ate dinner, fixed my homecoming dress (sewed on straps) phone for like 10 minutes, and now im sitting here typing this. Guys confuse me, i swear things will be getting good then bam! something messes it all up and then its my fault? w.e haha i should just completley swear off guys..Anyways tomorrow nights the homecoming game :] and then saterdays homecoming! i still dont know what im doing with my hair? i really really hate this haircut but ohwell im stuck with it till it grows out. Well i just read a whole book via sparknotes and im and about to fall asleep so ill write tomorrow after the game probably.

<3kayla

Tuesday

Im so freakin bussy. I have like no time to do anything ahhhh its crazy. Sorry i didnt write last night, im slacking here huh. Well nothing really exciting happened yesterday. I forget what happened at school? haha but after school we went to bayside for our volleyball game. We creamed them...it was sad...for them. We won in two games and i got to play in the second game. The ride over was the highlight of my day :] Haha well today same nothing to exciting happened. We played viera and beat them and i had some playing time. Michael came and watched it was really nice to see him, i didnt really get to talk to him or w.e but still just seeing him was nice. haha and we totally creamed them too, we won in two games again :] uhmm well "black" and "white" were both there but "white" actually tryed to get me to talk to him and stuff and actually worked for atention haha but "black" on the other hand...he was gone most of the night with some viera girls. I tryed to talk to him and stuff but it just seemed like he blew me off? but then appariently he thought i was blowing him off? w.e idc he said he was done "bothering" me (which he never has) and hes not going to like try and stuff anymore...so yeah idk anymore. Oh then last night "green" called me and was like ahh i havent talked to you in forever haha :] and he was suppose to come to our game tonight but couldnt. And i jus got off the with him just now and stuff we talked more tonight than anyother time we've talked on the phone. Haha we didnt talk about anything like important but still. And then i was trying to put my bird back in its cage and i was like dude my bird doesnt like me...and hes like i know someone who likes you :] and i was like and who would that be? and hes like uhmlasdjfjdf and got quiet haha and then total changed the subject. I was like okay? but idk i find all those old feelings or w.e coming back when i talk to him or im around him...and i dont want them to cuz i mean its him...haha im kinda all over the place these days. Well im exhausted and iv got another long day tomorrow.

goodnight,

<3kayla :]

Monday

Eww i hate mondays. Today wasnt all that bad. This morning i heard rumors about "white" and that he was saying all this shit. But he denies it and idk who to believe so i was just like w.e forget it. I was just in one of those moods today, i played like crap at practice. But ohwell tomorrows a new day. Tonight was the powderpuff game. It was really fun, hung out with different people. Im looking forward to the homecoming game, and homecoming :] Also people have been bugging me to make up my mind about a guy, that i have to pick one? I dont want a bf now it just complicates things, friends is just so much easier. So im just going with the flow here...and maybe people will stop calling me a tease....

Anyways im going to bed

Goodnight

<3kayla

Saterday

Wow i had fun today :] i slept in to about 11ish then called Brandi and we went the beach to surf. There wasnt much waves but it was perfect for brandi to learn on. We surfed with katie in the morning and then later me people came. People meaning dylan, nick, alex, quinn, and seth and then brandi. I had fun :] i lost my top and bottoms a few to many times on this like tube thing they had and man you just had to be there. Im a little sunburned but it was so worth it. Now im just "babysitting" alec. And tomorrow Samanthas coming over at 12 and we are hanging out all day. We are going jewlery shopping haha :] Well im watching grind now and will write ether later or tomorrow

<3 always kayla

Friday(forgot yesterday)

Opps my bad, didnt write yesterday. Well yesterday was an amazing day. At the volleyball game i got to play alot in the second and third game. I scored 3 points with just my serves, it was very exciting. Well at school "white" walked me to almost all my classes, it was nice. And he officially like asked me out and i said no. Its way to soon you know? I dont want to rush things, and i technically just broke up with michael and i mean im not going to be over him for a while. And then theres another kid...im going to call him "black" because that was the color shirt he was wearing today. I really really liked him over the summer and we were going to go out and stuff but things got all messed up and idk. But i still kinda like him? im not completly over him and stuff and he told me that hes done bothering me and is just going to give up. I didnt know what to say cuz apart of me wont let me like him cuz dont want to get hurt but then another part of me wants him to prove that i can trust him and by giving up it...idk. I guess i just going to have to forget about any feelings i still have for him...So yeah idk. Today nothing really exciting happened, i got my haircut and i think it looks okay i can never do anything with my hair. And my dad brought home some of the reef girl bathingsuit samples. I can were the tops :] but not these bottoms cuz there brazillion cut and its like a freakin thong. But im going to order like normal bottoms, im excited. Tomorrow theres supose to maybe be waves, so im going surfing and if i dont then im probably going to have people (dont know who yet) come over here and hang out. So im just going to go with the flow tomorrow. I was supose to hang out with jenna tonight and maybe tomorrow but that got canceled..again. So yeahh idk wats going on anymore. But i might get to hang out with brandi tomorrow :] well if anything else exciting happens tonight then ill write again later.

-Kayla <3

Later:
So "white" called me and we talked on the phone for like 2 hours. Yeah i like him like a just a little bit, but i still like dont know him all that well and stuff. So yeah im just going to not do anything right now. And im talking to "black" right now...and i was starting to actually believe him and stuff and would of tryed to let him in and stuff. Well turns out tonight he went to the movies and madeout with this chick. Now you can see why i wouldnt let myself fall for him...he hasnt shown i can trust him? But w.e its his life he can do what he wants. He says he just wants me..but then goes and does this...so who knows w.e haha i just want to go live on an island in the middle of no where so no one can find me, i need a break, an escape. People dont see...i just put on a happy face..but iv been dealing with alot of my own shit lately. Yeah wonderfull huh? And its raining and idk why but its making me want to cry? wow okay im going to go watch tv or something take my mind off of everything...my heads about to explode

<3kayla

Wednesday

Today was a good day :] i was in a very good mood all day. I didnt get much sleep last night because i was up so late on the phone, which im just fine with :] so i was pretty tired at school and stuff. Well when i got to school "white" found me and he walked with me to my locker and to first period and stuff, and i got a hug. First period was kindof a weird class? Idk mrs.miles is a little different... but anyways i had a lot of homework (almost every class) and i just finished. Oh yeah and seems that im like known as the "reef girl" around school haha. Volleyball was good after school i was in a very good mood so i played pretty good :] i got all my serves over today it was exciting and we have a game tomorrow so i really hope i get to play? "white" also came and found me after school and walked me to volleyball. Oh oh i got my handstand almost down now, im getting better haha iv been practicing in the gym. Well after Volleyball i went surfing with my brother and dad. The waves were surprising really really fun. It was kinda offshoreish? and mushy but still breaking nice. I actually had a few little barrels :] my brother was very impressed, he didnt expect me to be that good i guess? but i had fun, going out there really refreashes me. I totally forget about everything, nothing else matters and it gives me a chance to clear my head. Well i actually just got off the phone with "white" we talked for almost 2 hours :] but cuz i got like no sleep last night im going to go lay down or something.

goodnight <3

Tuesday

Today was a good day :] well for the most part. I found "white" this morning and he walked with me to the portables for first period, but i didnt get to see him again the rest of the day. He just called but my phone didnt ring and he has to do his homework but hopefull he will call me back. Uhmm nothing really exciting happened today? Same old same old. I was going to go with alec to the delaura basketball game but he went to soccer. Going back to colors I talked to uhmm idk what color? im going to go with "green" haha :] well i talk to him shortly today. idk whats going on there? but yeah w.e. And my mom is really really mad at me? and i dont really know why. She wont talk to me or even look at me. I appariently hurt her feelings and now shes just cutting me out. w.e Im going to go watch beauty and the geek for a little bit so ill write later.


Later:
Awhmannn. Well "white" was supose to come with me and samantha to homecoming. Samantha was my technically my date date but i was going with him really. Now hes not even going to be home that day hes going out of town. Im sad now :/ like i said i was cool with it but idk i was looking forward to it im kinda sad now. Well he said he has something "planned" for this weekend. So i think that means hes deffiently not going...:/ oh well everything happens for a reason right? I will dedicate the night to my friends, samantha and i will be the hottest couple there haha :P

LaterLater:
Wow its like 1 in the morning and im on the phone with "him" :] wev been talking since like 10ish. Man i think i like this kid more and more everytime i talk to him. I know its late..but tonight was a good night.

love,
Kayla :] <3

Septemer 17th

Well todays the first day of my blog. Iv decided to move my "journal" onto here :] Today i had a very good day. I went with samantha to the florida mall to go dress shopping. I must of tryed on a gazillion dresses untill i found this really pretty black and white strapless. I never wear dresses ever so its amazing i was able to find one. Samantha found a really adorible one too, its a strapless yellow dress. After the mall we went to beals and found shoes. I got black heels :] i feel very pretty when i wear them haha. Also samantha and i totally decided what we're going to do for halloween, its exciting. Well when i got home i talked to Michael, and we both decided to be just friends which i think is for the best i love that kid to death and dont want to loose him as a friend. I have also decided im going to use code names for people i want to remain nameless for the time being :] im going to use colors like me jenna and samantha did in 7th grade. Well "white" called me tonight and we talked for a good hour. Last night we talked on the computer for like 5 hours and had a very deep conversation. It was nice :] i find myself maybe falling for this kid? Well anyways now im just watching OneTreeHill and i see lightning outside and can hear thunder...well im going to see if i can figure out how to post this...will write tomorrow.

love,
kayla :] <3